Amy M. Young

Tomorrow I head home from Glasgow. It’s been a fun stay with a great friend, and I’m going to miss the lovely people and scenery of Glasgow and Scotland (and of course my friends throughout the UK).

Once I am home I will begin working on Chasing the Angels and Kiss The Flame, and hopefully have them ready for the end of the year. I also will be revamping the site, so there will be some downtime as I reorganize things.

I had planned to write more about my trip, but it’s been mostly quiet and lovely — exactly what I needed to recover from the stressful times I was having.

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So, I’ve been remiss in posting here for a while. I’m in the middle of vacation as well as redoing the website, so things are pared down to basics right now while I go through and rework the site.

I’ve been doing a lot of reading, and a bit of writing lately, and have started to pull all my facts together to create a tight knit storyline when the time comes to write it.

But right now, I’m trying to get things straightened out for getting on to bigger and better things.

Expect the site to change in the next month or so and for things to change otherwise over the next few months.

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Today is my last day at my old job.
Tomorrow I start a new chapter in life, and move forward with a new outlook.

I have so much on my plate that I’m a bit overwhelmed, and thankfully I have family and friends who support me in this time in fluctuation.

I am looking forward to my trip overseas, not only to see friends, but to see a new place and have new experiences.

I promise I will write more – I’ve been bit by the writing bug again, and will have more to say in the coming days about things. Right now, I’m just in a bit of well, fluctuation. I’ve got so much on my hands that I don’t know which way to turn yet, and I’m happy in life.

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Well hello there internets. You're still around? 

I'm sorry for my lack of interaction lately - though it has been good for behind-the-scenes stuff that you don't get to see (just yet). 

I've been slaving away over the back end of this site and a few others, trying to keep up with writing and I do have a few interesting blog posts coming up shortly.  I've also been doing a lot of research on why we like music and what creates amazing musicians to try an add a bit of realism to the backgrounds of a few characters. 

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I have been absent for a while, so you do have my apologies. I have been laid flat with this cold that appears to be making the rounds, and set up camp in my chest and head for a while. Right now, it appears *knock wood* to be clearing up, so soon I should be back in fighting form. 

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I'm supposed to be working on a novel right now. Instead I'm still poking at my site and fiddling around on social media. Any excuse to not do anything that I'm supposed to right? 

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One thing writing has done for me, is force me to find out who I really am.

To dig behind the facade that all of us get as we grow up - the rights, the wrongs, the slights, the highs, the lows - to find my passions, to find out what makes me happy, to find what makes me tick along like a happy little train. 

It hasn’t been an easy trip, and it isn’t done by a long shot. We’re all works in progress, the only time that the work is finished is once we shuffle off this plane of existence. 

Friends and family keep telling me to find what makes me happy. This, on paper, is a great thing - find what makes you happy and work towards doing that as your life’s goal. Problem is - I don’t know what makes me happy.  Hurdle one is that I was brought up with the JOY paradigm (Jesus, Others, Yourself). While the J may not be there anymore (more of a G for Gods/Goddesses), I still put others before myself. I will willingly give my last dollar to a friend who needs it and live without (no, this is not self-aggrandizement). The guilt that comes when I put myself first is almost unbearable, and has taken a very long time to learn how to undo that, to learn that sometimes we need to put ourselves first, for our own mental and physical health. 

Writing has been in part a way to take those emotions and issues and funnel them into something that is useful, in part cathartic. It gives me a non-destructive way to deal with negative and positive. 

Though it will never see the light of day, some of my writing is clear author insertion (not Mary Sue shit either). Seeing myself through a filter of words has helped me dig past the layers that have grown up in my psyche to please others. Others are never going to be one hundred percent pleased with me, and in the end I’ve got to please me first to be happy in life.   While, like everyone, I want to be loved, I want to be cared for, I’ve come to the point where I recognize that, to borrow a phrase - Haters Gonna Hate. There are always unhappy people who want to bring you into their unhappiness. There are people who aren’t going to like you for reasons you’ll never understand if you sat for a millennia and thought about it. 

So, here I am, on a journey to myself.